For millions of high school seniors, the mere thought of college will send chills down his or her spine. The idea of leaving home brings a sense of fascination amidst uncertainty. While maybe not in a physical sense, the thought of leaving home, the home that is at the very core of your heart, is a little nerve wracking. That, along with chaos of applying, considering not only what you are leaving, but where you are going, is not an easy thing to wrap your head around. I’m not afraid to say that the past few weeks have been a little scary, and the next few are sure to be even scarier. But, fear brings uncertainty, and with uncertainty comes excitement. Not only for the future, but for the now, and hopefully these three songs will help you understand.
1. “Yellow” – Coldplay
The first time I heard this song was in a 7th grade music composition/appreciation class. My teacher showed it to us as an example of an “ideal piece of music”, not necessarily the best piece of music, but really something to aspire towards. As an alternative rock fan, this song has been a fixture of my rotation for years, yet it took less than one minute in a movie theatre for me to truly understand it. Sitting with excitement as the opening frames of “Boyhood” took shape, seeing little Mason look at the clouds with innocent lust, knowing that his next twelve years would unfold before my eyes within three hours, it was pretty a crazy idea. It wasn’t until I took a look at the stars when leaving the theater, that I finally realized that I had actually done the same.
2. “My Mouth, My Lips” – From Indian Lakes
It’s weird to think about leaving home. I’ve spent eleven years in my home, one of three that I have spent my life in, and the only one that I would consider to be my “true home”. My years in this house, this town, this community, have defined me and who I am today. Whether I decide to go to a school that is an 8 hour plane ride away, or a 45 minute car ride away, I know one thing: I won’t be home. The place I choose to go to school won’t be home, it’ll be just be a strange place, devoid of the trees and hills that I have grown so accustomed to over the years. Yes, I realize that leaving home is an inevitable event, but whether you’re 17 or 37, leaving what you know isn’t exactly the easiest thing to do.
3. “White Teeth Teens” – Lorde
Earlier this month, I hosted a Spanish exchange student in my home for two weeks. This was a part of an exchange with my high school in Connecticut, and his in Spain. For those two weeks, he immersed himself in the life and times of a “typical Connecticut teenager”. We, alongside other exchange/host student pairs, spent a lot of time together, as we became closer friends, bonding through this common experience. Half of us were light years away from home, immersing ourselves in a new life, with an excited glow filling our teeth. For the rest of us, we were home. But, this home is more than just where we had slept, night after night. We are the sum of not only our family and household, but our friends, our teachers, our school, the community around us. I only have a few months here until it’s time to go. Maybe I should take advantage of them.